Aub’s

I don’t need to be anything other than a prison guard’s son
I don’t need to be anything other than a specialist’s son
I don’t have to be anyone other than a birth of two souls in one
Part of where I’m going is knowing where I’m coming from

I don’t want to be anything other than what I’ve been tryin to be lately
All I have to do is think of me and I’ve peace of mind
I’m tired of looking ’round rooms wondering what I gotta do
Or who I’m supposed to be
I don’t want to be anything other than me

I’m surrounded by liars everywhere I turn
I’m surrounded by imposters everywhere I turn
I’m surrounded by identity crisis everywhere I turn
am I the only one who’s noticed
I can’t be the only one who’s learned
I don’t want to be anything other than what I’ve been trying to be lately
All I have to do is think of me and I’ve peace of mind
I’m tired of looking ’round rooms wondering what I gotta do
Or who I’m supposed to be
I don’t want to be anything other than me

Can I have everyone’s attention please
if you’re not like this and that
You’re gonna have to leave

I came from the mountains
the crust of creation
My whole situation made from clay dust stone
and now I’m telling everybody

I don’t want to be anything other than what I’ve been trying to be lately
All I have to do is think of me and I’ve peace of mind
I’m tired of looking ’round rooms wondering what I gotta to do
Or who I’m supposed to be
I don’t want to be anything other than me

I DONT WANNA BE…
I DONT WANNA BE…
I DONT WANNA BE…
I DONT WANNA BE ANYTHING…
ANYTHING OTHER THAN ME…

I don’t wanna be…
I don’t wanna be…

i was really pissed this morning. i woke up at 5:30, took a bath and went immediately to the college for the advising of subjects. i was the 3rd one to arrive (as usual, EC s always d 1st to fall in line right from the very start) outside EC200. later we learned that another line is being made downstairs. we insisted on staying just outside EC200 and requested the janitor to serve as our witness in case of arguments. but we nontheless asked for a seat downstairs. turned out we were right in waiting outside EC200. i was the 2nd to arrive in the advising room but i couldn’t locate my brown envelope containing my records so i searched for it for quite some time. damn buntag pa sau gi singot na kau ko. then when i found it and returned to the advising room, as i was copying my schedule, a memo came saying those without grades in strat couldn’t enroll yet. and so nabitin ang enrolment, we all went out coz we don’t have our grades in strat yet. i went to get my grade in litt21. our vry good teacher told me to come back an hour after. kalagot kau coz we took that damn subject last sem pa and until this morning he wasn’t done computing our grades. mura ra bag dagko kau manghatag ug grades, perti ra ba jung gagmaya. i was really pissed. i got 1.8. and most of my klasm8s got grades below 2.0. ang ako lang, gisayu lang ta pd niya hatag amu grade para naka repit mi atong summer! punieta! ga major ra ba ana iyang subject kada miting hapit kay magreporting giatay murag unsa jud ka chada xa mutudlo. we all feel na we don’t deserve such a grade. giatay. madawat ra ta to namu ug in-ato amu grade kung na feel jud namu ang kalisud sa subject. wa raba jud xay klaro ya parameters of grading giatay klaro kaung naay pinalabi. sus ug tarong pa xang maestro, magtinarong pud unta ming mga studyante. saon, feeler pud kau amu teacher ambot na lang. oki ra ko kay wa man koy scholarship gi maintain n cige ko absent coz i don’t like seeing his face. nya how about my klasm8s hu are college honors who got grades of less than 2.0? diba unfair? sus, we rather have endless paperworks with sir casocot who is generous in giving grades than having a feeling brayt stupid instructor. mao nang kung kinsay makabasa ani na wa pa kakuha ug litt or any english subject na ma under ni bikeboy, maypay mu drop na lang mu daan kay wa jud muy future bisan ug magtinarung mu. oki pa bation ang makakuha kag gamay na grado nya maau jud ang teacher kaysa sa wa nay angay ang teacher, wa pa jud angay muhatag grado.

Wheeehhh! i nibir toted my birtdi wud bi so fun! the nyt b4, i was making up my mind whether to come to dumaguete or not. On the way to dipolog, a stranger approached me in the bus and sed he’ll sit with me. whoah! holdap na pud ta tingale to! sa oceanjet, natulog ra ko hehe.. vincent alzen n ryan fetchd me sa pier. we wen’t to aqua pool, then nangaon mis acsat. waz sa plano na mag-inum mi, nhapit ra  mi times after mcdo nbuy ug drinks. i texted sum pipz to go to alzen’s place. didito mi nagtagay ug generoso! wheehh ang saya-saya! i was so happy kay enjoy au mi! naa dd kuya andrei grin harold ryan luvin. wasted au c luvin makalingaw kau iya mga gibuhat whaha!! "Bai, help me peace myself" n "give me space" lines! whahaa! c kya andrei hubog au whaha! niapas k-lou kay ako man awayon f d xa adto whaha.. lingaw jud au ako bee day! thanks to generoso n alzen! whheeeehh!!!!

whaaaah!! at last. the sem is over… mura rag wala! time runs fast jud kau! this sem was indeed a memorable one- the sleepless nights making "make-another-one" NCPs, our very nice CI Mam Ian, amu 1st hospital duty sa Holy Child Hospital, ug tanang laing-laing personality sa deewan- and inahan na si sarina, ang secretary na si Belle na mularga nag states (huhu), ang treasurer ug official photographer na c K-lou, ang mayor na c Kat, ang moderator na c Johanna, and akong partner na c Devon, ang gwapa na c Leah, ang chadag earrings na c Vicent, and Miss Bayawan na c mariane, ang future miss SU Farm na c RR, and akong dormats na c Mark, ang TEDIBEYR NA GIHINGANLAG AUBREY, ang ratling na s Sabel, ang batag nawng na c Clarence, ang bag-ong magluvtim na c Jeni ug Darrel, ang debater na c Keith, ang artist na c Freddie, ang bag-ong n-slim na c Arniel, ang cigeg pangutana na c Ross, ang nka-braces na c Delwin, and gwapa na c Deah, ug and BRAYT na c Iris! I can’t forget the time wen we went to Silliman beach kami leah kat k-lou arniel dea, picture2 mi sa airport, nangaligo mi dagat nag-jeans ming tanan, n nangaon mi habhaban na puro mi basa! whaah! hahayy… enjoy ra pud ko ani na CI grup, mangadto mi pulangbato falls nilang Mayor Kat ugma! yahuu!!!! hinaut mupasar ming tanan ani, hinaut kami tanan maka-candlelighting although mawala na c belle….

whoah! kapuy kau karong panahona! last tue, 5:30am na mi nahuman sa amu NCp, nya ipausob pa jud amu Nrsng DX! lisud pa jud kau pakisamahan amu patient kay murag out-of-this-world kau! but cge na lang kay last duty na bitaw xa for dis sem, nya lingaw sad kau mi sa hospital, kawat2 mi pechurs (documentation noh, haha). sakit au ako tiil ug tinigod kay wa jud miy lingkod2 unya sa mung ka hawod naglibot2 mi sa holy child nag "rounds" kunuhay haha! nya pagka-hapon kay nag-impromptu reporting ko sa histo, n d funny thing was dat our teacher even commended our presentation "short but concise" kuno whaha bisan ug short ra jud to xa kay wa nay laing nahibaw-an sa report! last nyt gud patay au ko natulog from 7"30pm to 7am! nya atay kau ganina dugay au mi naghulat ni karlo n johanna sa amung mga D1 bros n sis coz naa lage quiz, nya diay to gcancel wa man lang mi gtxan! naa bya ko exam unya, but insted na magtuon, nagnet ra ko haha. lingaw au ko ganina ako special quiz sa speech namalhin mi lingkod sa likod kay nangudigo whaha! sayang absent ko last tue, makabalos na ta ko sa ako prof sa ako 3rd major kay amu section ang ng.evaluate niya.. la lang, lay lingaw, mayapay mupahulay sa banga!

whaaaaaahhh!!!! wa ko kakuhag copy a weekly sillimanian gahapon!!! d ko mahimutang!!! wheehhh!!! i wasn’t able to attend my class in strat yesterday kay 6:30pm nko nakamata! confident pa au ko pagmata nko coz i tot buntag nah! nag.huna2 pa ko na way klase kay mag.asesment 2nd grup namu. nya diay to gabie pang dako! hehe.. la lang, la koy mabuhat, ay naa diay daghang buhatonon pero d ko ganahan magtrabaho hehe… matug sa ko… atay kau 4am nami nangatulog d other night himu fhp n ncp, pag.uli pa jud nko sa dorm sau buntag kay ang penguin na dorm manager nko ang ni-open sa door ug iyang griting sa ako kay "ikawng abata ka!!!!" whaha!! la lang… d pig in d city recently got into a very hot argument with my fag rum8. bun-anay cilag baso haha! nalingaw ko nila magsumbagay ta cila nya kay ang pig in d city nagpalaban man bug unal haha.. ug sa dihang naangin ang akong electric fan sa ilang away, napangag tawon ang usa ka blade, deh karn with matching sound effect na ako fan kung paandaron. 1st hosp. duty nko gahapon, la lang. d other day while ng.asesment mi, naay nanawag nko sa holway sa holy child nya nkigstorya nko, nya wa jd ko nkaila bt luks family kau nko. smile2 nlang pd ko. sa dorm nko nka remember na silingan diay to namu sa dipolog! whahaha!!! wa lang, sa magbasa ani, nonsense noh? sa mauwat lang. whahaha!!

I was awaken by our dear babe in d city in d wee hours of lastnight… I was to get angry, but then, i heard some music from the other room, ’twas "hands to heaven" played for d nth time… then i remember my days in Cebu… timing pud au coz we’re gonna go der next wik for our bio fildtrip… hahhhaayy… d song reminds me of my solo flights in SM every Wednesday afternoon watching  movies- then >>>whapak!<<< i feel like i’m actually der at dat very moment (ay pagbout ako ning blog!) der’s dis certain filing kana magsakay ko jip from SM to Urgello. I remember my ngohiong snacks in Urgello… D pancit cantons my landlady kuk for me.. the late night McDo snacks with my bordmates… my breakfasts at affordafoods… how i munch Oishi Manju and Chilen chicharon… d calls i made in PLDT-jones… d internet sessions at Netopia-Jones… D sundays at Sto. Nino with Pal n Maridol… d "brownie ala mode + tap water, please" orders at dessert factory… D E-mall lunch break with my CNU pips… d fun i had with my bordmates led by our landlady ate cora-dang… my days in CNU n d opportunity i let go… hahahayyyyy…. i reli missed my days der… i’m quite certain i’l be hesitant to go bak to dgte once i get der nextwik puhon…

why are pigs soooo inconsiderate?! punieta!u act as if you’re the only one stayin in dat "smells-like-hell" rum! u use things as f u own dem! u don’t even know how to return dem properly! u maderpaker samamabits syet! y don’t u go hom n plant kamote! yati anoying na jd kau kang babuya! u brag as f u hav evrythin, as f u know evrythin! u smoke in dat "smells-like-hell’ rum as f ur d only 1 der! unsay pagtuo nimu sa amu, nanag gas mask nga d masimhutan imung asu?! punieta ka, pagtou nimug makaya nimu imung sudlan? abi nimung ganahan sad sila nimu?!?! hah! paghulat lang sa imung panahon! kanang batasana? abi nimung ganahan ang mga tawo ana? wa ra ka kabalo dugay ra kang gi libak sa imung likod! way ligo! baho!

A group of beer-starved college flunkers call this lil sleepy place a killing field. whehehe… pinatyanay jud diri doh, ug inum! bale jud… there’s no place like home jud. diri ra ko mag-inum na pinatyanay, tagpila pa ka case na Rh and mahurot d japun mangaparug. pero ako, yati au, known nkong musuka pghuman! whaha.. pa as if jud dohng di jud matamaan unya inig uli kayperti diay to musuka. atay jud ni c ayban, ang dakilang financer. dagko kaug gasto ning bisyuha doh, pero bilib kong ayban, kuot jud sa bulsa. atay, kulang na lang isuka nko akong atay kay wa nay laing masuka. atay jud oi, kada uli nko, mao na lang cge ang mahitabu, inum! way piling lugar- plaza, balay ayban joyjoy ethel, pantalan hantud naa la nay magahulog agi sa kahubog!

last summer it was "goin loco over patricia evangelista", now its . . . (wala. whehehe.) R n R…. whaaaahhh!!!!! d smile… d angelic voice…. whaahhhh… pwd pa tour sa SU? hehe…